Happy New Year 2014

This is my 2nd year working on New Year. No plans on New Year's Eve except for sleeping in early.

Summarizing 2013?
How should I put it? Housemanship is tough! I don't know how I survived 1 year of torture. Although, there are times that I appreciate it and loving my job. It takes time getting used to, but there are always (most) days that I thought of quitting.

This job is draining my energy. Well, enough about my job. It'll never end if I start talking about what I 'love' about my job. :P

Anyway, for the past years when I was still in Moscow, I usually writes about my resolutions and what I've accomplished. But I don't think I have the time anymore. I miss my time. I miss spending new years with close friends. I miss being silly and doing stupid things.

I just wish that things will get better. I wish I'll get through this. I wish to be a great doctor. I wish for health, wealth and love for me and my family. I wish things will go smoothly for my wedding (the anticipation is killing me) and I hope unresolved things will get resolved soon.

May I have more patience for my patients.

Happy New Year peeps!
May it be a good year. InsyaAllah. Cheers!

Tired, Exhausted and Drained... on NY's eve..

Hey peeps.. you guys know how I always reviewed my year's resolution and make new ones on New Year's Eve?

Well, yeah..
I think I might have to skip this year's.. I have been working for 2 weeks now.. from 6am to 10pm daily.. One day off (THANK GOD!)

I rarely see the sun.
You'd thought that only happens in Moscow. Nope, it still is happening to me now...

I even forgot how it is to feel hungry.

OH! Not to mention the screwing I got from all the Specialist and MOs... Made me feel like, what have I been doing 7 years in Med School. How is it possible that I am still this blur! Sigh..

I just hope, things will get better along the way..
I have to do an NRP test within this 2 weeks, or I'm guaranteed an extension in this Department!
But I think I am expecting that.. I just don't know how to manage my time yet, and I can't get used to sleeping less than 5 hours.... I kept oversleeping!


Anyway, my current home is near the hospital, and my bedroom view is KLCC. Gorgeous view! Very de-stressing..

Tonight is New Year's Eve, but I don't think I'll wait until midnight to see the fireworks. I currently feel like a ZOMBIE!!

Okay peeps.. till the next post!


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! ;))

The view from my room

2012

As usual, I'll write a summary of my year.

What can I say about 2011? I've been trying to recall what happen for the past year. I've been looking at my facebook picture albums and my blog posts. I can say, 2011 is pretty mediocre. Nothing really super major happened. I was pretty happy this year and I can say money wise is also quite good. I didn't go bankrupt like last year. :-P

I had the best birthday surprise ever! I was just in awe. :')

The downside was 2011 is the year where I had the most break ups. I think. I lost count how many times we broke up this year and we also had 1 serious break up. Yeah, he's all stressed out with I don't know what exactly. Maybe it's the final year thing, maybe financial stuffs. Not so sure, but we had a major big fight and ended up with a break up. He dumped me. Then there was another break up where I dumped him because I was just disappointed with the time we're spending with each other. Yeah. I'm pathetic like that. In my mind was, I wanted to spend as much time as possible in the final year in Moscow with him but in his mind was, he wanted to make me to spend as little time as possible with him as practice for the next semesters without him. There was a time also, where he asked to be separated for a month. I was like, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! A MONTH?!!". Yeah, we always have our disagreements like this. So we ended up breaking up. And making up again after 3-4 days. That's love for you I guess. You can't spend too much time together, but you can't spend time apart longer than a week. Confusing much? Tell me about it... Oh yeah! there was also that break up where he decided he didn't want me to perform for MASSAD, 2 weeks before the event. Like WTF right? I practiced for almost a month, and he decided I can't dance 2 weeks before the event. But everything turn out ok in the end. Thank God!

Another was that my dad had a stroke. Alhamdulillah, he's all fine now. Although he does complaint about his left hand being weak and having some short-term memory loss. As long as he knows who he is and who we are, then that's good enough. I miss him sometimes. I called him for his birthday last week, but both of us don't have that father-daughter relationships like most people do. It was the most awkward call ever!!! Seriously. I almost felt regret for calling him. Might have just sent him an sms instead like every year. >_<"

Summer was fun. In Moscow, in Italy and in Malaysia. It was just a perfect Summer and also I got to spend Aidilfitri at home after 6 years spending it abroad. =)

Hrm... what else? I guess, that's pretty much the highlights of 2011. I can't really think of anything else. It's pretty mediocre. Right?

Shall I call 2011 - The Break-up Year? ;-P

So lets see what I've accomplished in 2011. View last year's post HERE.

ANNA'S 2011 RESOLUTIONS

• I still want to settle all my exams on time. I did settle all my exams on time. ;)
• Travel to all the places in my GRAVITY post. But I doubt that I can travel to all those places in 1 year. :P Yeah. I didn't managed to travel to all those places in ONE YEAR but I went to one of the list which is ITALY! and I'm going to Morocco at the end of this January!
• Mengaji at least 1 ayat per day. I really want to accomplish this! I went from 1 ayat per day to 1 page per day. I'm actually quite proud with myself. ^.^
• I need to let things go. I can't keep brooding over things that upsets me! I actually tried. but it's not as easy as I thought.
• Be patient. Always. It's the same for this one too! I'm actually even more hot-tempered than usual! -_-"
• Don't bother so much over other people's problems. They didn't ask me to solve it. I can't stand people who don't solve their problems. I know it's their problems! but why can't they solve it?!!! I can't help solving it for them.
• Live freely and happily! HAHA. I'm living quite happily, but freely? not so sure about that. :P
• Loose weight or at least get a slim curvy body! :P BIGGEST FAILURE EVER!
• Keep saving money. Buy GOLD! :D I can say I'm quite proud with this. I did bought 1 gold coin, and I've been saving quite well too. ;)

4 out of 9.. haha.. that's actually quite bad isn't it? :-P Hope I'll do better with 2012's resolutions! So here goes;

ANNA'S 2012 RESOLUTIONS

• Pass all my final year exams and GRADUATE! Please pray that I'll graduate this year. 
• Travel as much as I can before work starts
• Study as preparation for work.
• Khatam the Quran. Or at least reach until half.
• Be more patient, be more understanding, let things that upsets me go, be more humble.
• Be mentally prepared for work.
• Have fun in my final year in Moscow.
• Go to every metro station in Moscow.
• Watch ballet show at the Bolshoi Theater.
• Keep saving money!
• Have that slim curvy body before I go back to Malaysia. 
• Be an awesome HO. (that's just a wish! I have biggest doubt I'll ever be awesome. Not in the beginning anyway.)

I hope I'll achieve everything next year! I've never really had a 100% success on my resolutions.. :-P

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Downhill year

I used to think that 2005 was the worst year ever for me(if anyone ever read my friendster blog which I already deleted). 2010 feels like 2005 all over again but a little worse.

It was all good in the beginning. I felt like it went downhill after Chinese New Year. Year of the Tiger and I'm born in the year of the Tiger. I can't remember if 1998 was a bad year for me though, I was standard 5. hrmm.. I don't know, maybe there were something awful happened in 1998 but I can't remember. I tend to forget bad stuffs that happens to me. Just some bad things stuck in my head. :P

Anyway, so what had happened in 2010. January was great! I had great exams result, travel to Europe, my birthday was great. basically everything was great.

Then there was the metro bombing attack in March. My ex-roomate started to act weird 2 months before her graduation. sigh. That was heartbreaking. I'm not sure if I'm over it. It felt almost like being dumped by a boyfriend. How can you just leave a friend who you've been living with for 5 years without an explanation. She didn't even want to explain about it. I mean, you're living with someone, of course there'll be problems but isn't there a way to resolve it? and she just left without telling me goodbye. It's a very sad story. I didn't tell my mom about it and she kept asking about her. Because no one would thought that after 5 years of living together it would be like this right? sighh.. I'm getting over it. It's almost 5 months since she left and from time to time I still feel angry for the thing she had done to my heart. And from time to time, I wished I had been stronger and stood up, asking her what the hell I did wrong. (mainly, that's the thing that's bothering me. I don't know what I did wrong). ok. enough about her.

Then, I had the 'pleasure' of doing my practicals here. Deducting my summer holidays to 1 month. :( Even worse, Moscow was SUPER HOT!!! I have 2 fans in my room to keep the myself cool. Not to mention the forest fire and haze. From one problem to another, perangai groupmates yang tak pernah nak bertanggungjawab, Until the last day, still got problems receiving our "zachut". But Alhamdulillah, we still got our zachuts. I miss my practicals friends though, but I don't think they remember me..

Summer holiday wasn't that great too. Everything just went wrong after a week in Malaysia. Bb decided to end our relationship in KL. WTF right? I was so mad at him that I didn't even bother to reconcile. It got better after a week when both of us cooled down. Then when we got back here, there were still problems but I got used to it and everything is going great now and I hope will get better in the future.

Then sem starts again in September. We're lucky to have chill teachers for our cycles this semester. but knowing how irresponsibles and such slackers my groupmates are, I think this semester, we had the worst attendance ever! Imagine only 3 out of 8 students came for Therapy class. THRICE! but If we get the strict teacher, I'll be hearing them complaining from day to night! I wish they'd be more responsible. I know they're smart, but you don't have to be lazy just because you're smart right? oh! not to mention the problems with the juniors. enuff said.

So that's basically what happened to me in 2010. Lets go to which resolutions I've accomplished in 2010. You can read it here. :)

ANNA'S 2010 RESOLUTIONS

• settle all my exams on time! Alhamdulillah. I thought with my mind so occupied by my roomate, I would fail 1 paper.
• travel more I went to 3 cities for my Eurotrip! :)
• study more errr.. not so sure about this. My results didn't potray it.
• talk to my dad. this is so hard to do. I don't have enough guts to talk to my dad. ;P HAH! After I found out what he did, it's even worse. I can't even spoke a word.
• mengaji at least 1 ayat 1 hari, pray more. heheee.. HAHA. Macam sama je. Although I tried. Internet always occupy me. sigh. terok2!
• be more open-minded I think I have been more open-minded.
• continue to be more careful with my spending.. ;) YES! my biggest achievement.
• continue to be patient and grateful Patience has its limit. but mine hasn't been broken yet.
• be more understanding Some things are just not worth understanding.
• be more stylish.. hehee.. ;) Still trying to find the perfect ankle boot! but think I am more stylish now. ;P
• KURUSKAN BADAN! LOSE WEIGHT! BE SEXY! hehehee.. ;) exercise at least 30 minutes per day.. HAHA! mmg tak buat lah. takda masa weh! (alasan)

So, what do I want to accomplish in 2011?

ANNA'S 2011 RESOLUTIONS

• I still want to settle all my exams on time.
• Travel to all the places in my GRAVITY post. But I doubt that I can travel to all those places in 1 year. :P
• Mengaji at least 1 ayat per day. I really want to accomplish this!
• I need to let things go. I can't keep brooding over things that upsets me!
• Be patient. Always.
• Don't bother so much over other people's problems. They didn't ask me to solve it.
• Live freely and happily!
• Loose weight or at least get a slim curvy body! :P
• Keep saving money. Buy GOLD! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS! CHEERS~ :)

How to perform CPR

Pergh. I bet if I was this hot, doing CPR to my patients, they spring back to live immediately! (ngahaha! berangan!)

New Year's coming soon. I have to start on my resolutions. Although I feel like I haven't done any of my this year's resolutions. sigh. 2010 is a bad year. one more week! I hope 2011 will be better.

Exam's coming soon! ark! ;(

010110

hey.. nice date right? 010110.. hehee.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

OMG, I can't believe how fast time is flying.. and in 6 months, I'll finish my 4th year.. oh! but first, exams, exams, exams.. tsssk~

so.. how do I summarize my 2009.. it was ok.. stressful at the beginning, being 3rd year and all.. with my visa tergantung sebab buat pasport baru, catching up 3 weeks of class, no avtomat for pathophysiology and getting a 3 during exam.. sad, i know.. I could've done better if I had just studied properly.. but i da patah hati with pathphys and i just said "ARGHHH, F*CK IT LAH! 3 PON 3 LAH!".. I just wanted to get out of Moscow at that time.. just wanted to finish my exams and get on with my holiday.. huhuhu~ I did manage to get average for my overall exams.. so it was ok.. :) nontheless, I am actually proud of myself for finishing 3rd year with an average.. I thought I'd do worst.. :D

4th year has been great so far.. but now my first exam in Russian is coming, it's not so fun anymore.. I'm starting to freak out! 0.o urgghh.. just thinking about it gives my tummy a whole swirling feeling and a headache.. ;( but all and all, I got all zachuts on time.. i just hate the idea of doing kelas ganti..

Summer holidays, I had a great time in Beijing.. didn't do much at home, except getting fat.. huhuhu~ helping my mom around.. nothing much, even with the financial crisis hitting my household.. but there's still rice on the table, so it's all good.. we just had to cut back all the luxuries though, shopping stuffs mostly..tp astro tetap ade! ;P so, I made this log book to keep tracks on my spending.. I can't believe I spent so much on so little stuffs.. so, when I wrote them down, I'd feel guilty to spend more after I saw what I spent my money on.. after all that saving, I didn't even have the need to ask my parents to pay my for ticket flights like I used to..oh! another proud thing about myself! I can't do it without bB though.. he's my inspiration on saving.. :D



New Year's eve was great!! In the evening, me & bB went to the Center.. Thought we could watch fireworks in Kremlin.. then suddenly, all the malls around red square closes at 8 pm!! we had to stand in the cold.. takkan wanna wait 4 hours just to see fireworks? so we decided to go back.. We held a countdown party in bB room..there was too much laughing, screaming and jumping! my throat hurts, and my leg hurts right now.. I can't believe Amy called it a laid-back party! It was too much for me.. maybe coz I'm not a clubbing girl.. we practically dance and sing the whole night till 3 a.m.. huhuhu~

now, moving on to resolutions.. lets see what I've accomplished last year..

ANNA'S 2009 RESOLUTIONS

• settle all my credits on time.. ( i hope i can) huhu.. I did settle everything on time.. even my exams.. ;)
  
• pray more, be more spiritual and a little more religious but still keep an open mind. :) right.. this one i slashed because, I always go for solat tarawih once a year.. I mean, in that one whole month of ramadhan, I only went ONCE! hehee.. but this time, I actually went more than once, and almost everyday when I was at home.. unfortunately, I didn't continue that rajin-ness in Moscow.. ;P and I still have to work on my mengaji.. malas sgt lately nak mengaji! :(
  
• go to every concert held in Moscow or KL.. [haha! can i add this to my resolutions? i regretted not going for Avril Lavigne's concert so much!! She held a concert in Moscow(June) and KL(August) and I didnt go for any of them!! damn it la.. dah la she's my favourite artist since high school!! :(( BSB punye concert in Moscow pon tak pegi.. huhuh..] So, I didn't slashed this one, because, so far in 2009, I only went to Beyonce's concert.. hehee.. and it was SUPER AWESOME!! I wanted to go to Rihanna's too while I was in Malaysia.. but sadly, it was cancelled.. nasib baik tak beli ticket lg at that time.. huhuhu~
  
• be more patient, and less impulsive dah tak tengking2 kat bB da. I rase la..
  
• be more loving. ahhh~ this one.. seriously, I don't know how to be more loving.. can someone tell me?
  
• study harder. This one.. every year pon ade problem with this one.. I am just plain lazy.. *sigh*
  
• be more open minded. I still gets upset whenever people have a different idea and thought than mine.. It's just hard to accept that everyone is different.. I have no idea why.. :(
  
• less complaining.. and be more grateful haha.. less complain and more grateful actually makes me happier.. it's better to do something yourselves than to rely on others.. seriously, it's more fulfilling.. :)
  
• kurangkan keborosan, be more careful with my spending.. *sigh*oh! my greatest accomplishment!!!

so, 5/9.. not bad ey?

so how do I declare my 2009? I actually have quite a number of proud moments.. haha! so i guess, I shall declare 2009 - MY PROUDFUL YEAR.. (I may have more proud years in the future.. InsyaAllah..)

2010.. what do I want to accomplished?

ANNA'S 2010 RESOLUTIONS

• settle all my exams on time!
  
• travel more
  
• study more
  
• talk to my dad. this is so hard to do. I don't have enough guts to talk to my dad. ;P
  
• mengaji at least 1 ayat 1 hari, pray more. heheee..
  
• be more open-minded
  
• continue to be more careful with my spending.. ;)
  
• continue to be patient and grateful
  
• be more understanding
  
• be more stylish.. hehee.. ;)
  
• KURUSKAN BADAN! LOSE WEIGHT! BE SEXY! hehehee.. ;) exercise at least 30 minutes per day..

ok.. the truth is.. I'm not quite prepared with my 2010 resolutions.. so far, this is what I've come up with..

so, enjoy your break peeps!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I got a rose as a new year gift.. :) I totally love this rose.. She has stripes on her petals! I love you b!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

can you believe it? it's already 2009.. FINALLY!! HOLIDAY!! I am so in need of a break!! huhuhu... the time flies by so fast.. and in 15 days is my birthday.. huhuhu.. I'm getting older.. :(

what can i tell you about 2008? i am not so sure, how to summarize 2008.. it has been a good year.. except at the end of it.. was a little, well, f***ked up.. but that's the past..

moving on, i had a great new year's eve.. simple but i was satisfied and truly happy.. it was an intimate evening.. only me and him, i cooked spaghetti bolognese and drank some sparkling tea, watch Wicker Park.. and he bought me a New Year's gift!! maybe Birthday + New Year's gift - TWILIGHT!! i was shocked!! he ordered it online coz we couldn't find any english Twilight in Moscow, every book was translated in Russian.. it was so sweet of him.. and well, i didn't get anything for him..huhuhu.. I'll get him something later, though, i did bought for him a United Colours of Bennington black pants.. does that count?? :P later we went to Fareez's room.. karaoke-ing, and telling some stupid-funny stories.. i had a great night.. :)

Our New Year Dinner

Twilight - the gift that bB gave.. :)

every year, i had my ups and downs.. it was good in the beginning, but i was a little unhappy at the end of 2008.. i don't really know why.. and it was upsetting him as well.. maybe it's the stress I've been going through.. 3rd year of medicine is killing me!! @_@ and this is just the first semester.. oh God, how i wish this 2 semesters would fly off as quickly as possible.. i still haven't settled my credits.. i think, all that's left is pathophysiology and pathoanatomy.. although, i am not so worried about pathoanatomy but quite worried about pathophysiology.. *sigh*

i have decided to go back home this winter holiday.. just to release all the stress, plus i need to get a new passport... ;D

and owh! every year I'll put up my resolutions on my blog.. if anyone was following my friendster blog, they would know.. unfortunately, i deleted that blog due to an argument i had with bB.. now, i regretted what i had done.. regretted it so bad!! damn it! owh well, lets learn from the past..

I did remember some resolutions from last year though, one of them was settle all my exams on time or get zachut(credits) on time.. something like that.. haha! that's the only thing that i remember.. oh well, now..

ANNA'S 2009 RESOLUTIONS

• settle all my credits on time.. ( i hope i can)


• pray more, be more spiritual and a little more religious but still keep an open mind. :)


• go to every concert held in Moscow or KL.. [haha! can i add this to my resolutions? i regretted not going for Avril Lavigne's concert so much!! She held a concert in Moscow(June) and KL(August) and I didnt go for any of them!! damn it la.. dah la she's my favourite artist since high school!! :(( BSB punye concert in Moscow pon tak pegi.. huhuh..]


• be more patient, and less impulsive


• be more loving


• study harder


• be more open minded


• less complaining.. and be more grateful


• kurangkan keborosan, be more careful with my spending.. *sigh*

i think that's all for this year.. :) i hope i could fulfill my resolutions..

after all that writing, i think i regretted most things that had happened in 2008.. most times i do feel like turning back time.. but there's no hope of doing so.. so i shall declare 2008 - MY MOST REGRETFUL YEAR.. i am rarely a regretful person, i don't really know what happened last year.. huhuhu.. well, just hope that 2009 shall bring me more prosper and i shall try to think before i act!! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.. MAY ALLAH BLESS U.. HUGS AND KISSES.. :)