Thursday, February 5, 2009


Life keeps reminding me that i need to grow up and be responsible.. hrmm..

i find it ironic - when i was a child, i wanted to grow up so fast.. grown up just seemed so fabulous. Actually, mostly when i was a kid, i wanted to be a teenager.. and I loved my teenage life.. not one bit i regretted.. but I dont want my life to go beyond 18.. when I did turn 18, everything about my life seem to suck every moment.. and ever since it has been a lot of ups and downs.. maybe because i kept wishing to be a teenager again..

haha! that's not gonna happen!

so then a few months ago, i decided to grow up.. but there's still that feeling deep down inside my heart that still wants to stay and be the little girl.. and wanting to depend on others instead of solving my problems myself..

oh well, this is my life.. and it's really not that big of deal at all.. i think my mother got it harder than i do and i dont see her complaining.. ^.^