Sunday, October 30, 2011


My sister's obsession over her imaginary "tummy"... and she believes she got the muffin top..

My sister is so freaking thin, you can actually give her names, like A Walking Plank or A Walking Stick or Twig or whatever because she's like so thin!
She's 35kg and she's obsessed with her weight and body image. Like seriously?

I've been searching for her photos but couldn't find one with her tummy exposed. I wished I had taken a picture of it.. but so far, this is latest and best pic I could find to show how her body looks like:

Can you see those legs?? Remember that photos add 20% extra body fat... :-p

I was just describing how her tummy looks like to my friend, which she asked me how thin is my sister because she looked "cengkung"... her tummy is like so flat, I'm like so jealous.. because even if she slouched, there's no 'cheeseburger' folds like mine... blerghhhh...

Dearest sister, don't be too obsessed with your body.. You're only 15 and you're growing. If you're too obsessed, I might diagnosed you having psychological problems like anorexic or bulimic, and send you to rehab and psychological institutions for teenage eating disorder. I wouldn't want that for you...

Stay healthy people! <3

Saturday, October 29, 2011


Has anyone got any of this link posted on your facebook wall?

"~✿ Tudung kita pun dah nak ke arah macam ini sekarang..cuba perhatikan..ini fesyen bertudung ZAMAN SEKARANG yang DIBANGGAKAN ramai..
Rasulullah bersabda,
"Sesiapa MENYERUPAI satu kaum, ia dari kaum tersebut".
(HR Imam Abu Daud dari Ibnu Umar) 
JAUHILAH dari memakai sebegini..AGENDA kafir laknatullah itu sangat HALUS sehingga kita tidak sedar, ketahuilah wahai WANITA ISLAM sekalian."

Let me give you another quote I got;

45. Muslim women wear the head covering (hijab) in fulfillment of God’s decree to dress modestly. From a practical standpoint, it serves to identify one as attempting to follow God in daily life and, therefore, protects women from unwanted advances from men. Righteous women throughout history have worn this type of modest dress. Prominent examples are traditional Catholic Nuns, Mother Teresa and the Virgin Mary, mother of Jesus.

Please remind ourselves that Islam is not the first religion of Allah swt. Please remind ourselves that Islam is not the first religion that Allah swt commanded to cover our head and dress with modesty.

If I see women covering their heads, walking around anywhere in the world, If these nuns did not wore their cross on their chest, I would've thought they're Muslims.

And I ask you, Isn't the shirts and pants the men wore are not of the Westerners? Did not the "non-Muslims" who created this type of clothes? T-shirt and jeans? and we see Muslim men wearing them all over the world. Why not say something about that? Why not wear like the Arabs? Wouldn't that be more Islamic? If that is your argument?

Why keep beards when the Jewish rabbis also keeps their beards, as well as the Brahmins? Wouldn't that be like following other religions too?

but who am I to say such thing u may ask, I don't even wear Hijab...
I'm just wondering...

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Aduhai, Tanahairku..

"The race was cancelled amid confusion in the grandstand, with fans throwing bottles to show their initial displeasure."

Ahh.. the mentality of my nation. You see someone just got hit by 2 motorcycles and lying on the track, a sudden RED FLAGGED announcement and we decided to throw bottles. Great attitude people and the news gets into BBC. Great. Just great.

Obviously an event won't get cancelled for no reason. Especially these kind of events!

It's the same situation I encounter when I went to Malaysia vs Singapore for World Cup Qualifying Match in Summer. I'm not sure if the situation would have been different if Malaysia had won, but why the hell would you throw paper cups and water bottles filled with water down the balcony. Seriously, people were getting wet! Bottles hitting people's head! No compassion at ALL! sheeshhh..

FULL STORY on Italian rider Marco Simoncelli HERE

Rest In Peace Marco Simoncelli

Sunday, October 23, 2011

grrrr... geram..

Sebenarnya, rasa macam nak delete profile picture dalam facebook yang ada gambar dia dengan saya. Sebab? sebab dia taknak upload gambar yang kitorang together. Kata nak simpan, lepas kahwin baru letak (tu pun kalau kahwin lah kan? Kalau tak, memang takde lah.)

Tapi........ ramai sangat comment gambar tu.. sayang pulak nak delete.

Siggggggggghhhh.. Yeah. I'm pathetic like that. >.<

Thursday, October 20, 2011

"Trust me"

I have this small habit of lying. LYING, not making up stories. I don't make up stories. I mostly lie when I feel lazy to answer about something. Yeah, I know it's weird and I can't really explain why.

Example 1:
The other day, my friend asked me,
Friend: "baru mandi ke?" (did you just had a bath?)
Me: "tak lah" (no).
Friend: "kenapa rambut depan basah?" (why is your front hair wet?).
Me: "Oh, sebab basuh muka" (Oh, because I washed my face).

The truth was, I did bathe before I came down, but my friend came like an hour later. So I think in my mind was, I didn't just had a bath. It was a while ago, and I didn't thought that my hair was still wet. Since I already answered "No", I just wen't and created a little lie. :-p

Example 2:
"Kaklong, mama keluar ke?" (did mama wen't out?) my brother asked.
I answered "ha'ah" (yup).
Suddenly my mom came out from the back room. LOL!
I didn't know where my mom were, but I was lazy to answered him, and I wen't straight to "yup"..

Example 3:
My mom: Kaklong, kenapa nasi ni macam lembik? (I don't remember her actual term, but it's not lembik) Macam nasi mama rendam semalam. (Kaklong, why is the rice look porridge-y? They look like the rice I soaked last night) [In her term should be thrown away]
Me: Oh, maybe sebab terlebih air kot? (Maybe I added too much water)

Ok. This was a total lie because I was completely CUUUUUAAAAAKKKKK!!! I didn't even saw the soaked water and the rice didn't even smell like it was spoiled! Thank God, no one had stomach ache.
P/s: I was 17 at that time, and didn't know how differentiate or cook rice properly. So my mom bought it. Rasa bersalah sangat!!! >.<

So yeah. That's me. As far as I can remember, I've been doing this since primary school. It has become a habit! There's actually more. Especially conversation between me and bB. but I forgot most of them because there's too many and didn't make much impact like these ones and also most of the time, bB caught me lying. He's so good at knowing me! Even my mom can't tell, he can. WTF. Or maybe my mom can, but she just leaves it at that. ;-p

So, if I answer something, you better just make sure I'm not lying. hahahaha.. :-p

I really don't know why I'm confessing about this in my blog. ;-p

Friday, October 14, 2011

Let My Heart be Open

I was kind of sad she answered the way she did. But it is not her fault.

Oh Allah, now I see.

"It is He Who made the sun to be a shining glory and the moon to be a light (of beauty), and measured out stages for it; that ye might know the number of years and the count (of time). Nowise did Allah create this but in truth and righteousness. (Thus) doth He explain His Signs in detail, for those who understand."
Al-Quran, Surah Yunus, Ayat 5 [10:5] 

Sunday, October 9, 2011


I've nothing particular to write about today. It's just the date today is very pretty so I want to post something.

I went out yesterday, after many weekends alone and boring spent in my lovely room. Since bB's not around, I haven't been going out much. I don't have that many close friends because since my 1st year, I have been spending my time with just bB. It is kinda sad sometimes, but I'm the person who can't live without a boyfriend.

I've never really had any chemistry with girls. I have no idea why. I have more guy friends, but since I have a boyfriend, I can't be too close to them either. So I rather just stick to my bf, or my family of course.

Ok, I'm blabbering about nothing.

Yesterday, we went to Traritsyno Park. Arep invited me to be the model. It was a sunny warm Autumn day! Perfect place with perfect weather. The leaves were falling, people leasuring, photoshooting. The best day. I only wished bB was there with me. We could've taken tones of romantic photos! :">

"Bittersweet October. The mellow, messy, leaf-kicking, perfect pause between the opposing miseries of summer and winter."  
~Carol Bishop Hipps

Monday, October 3, 2011

1, 2, 3...

Had an interesting discussion with our lecturer today. I'm currently in the middle of Tropical Diseases cycle. It's one of the most important cycles and it's specially for foreign students only. The Russian students don't have this cycle apparently. Because working in a tropical country, you basically can't run from tropical diseases. duh~ >.<

Anyway, our lecturer inserts some interesting current issues just to make the class not boring. So that we'll use our brain and have something to discuss about.

Just now, he asked our opinion whether prostitution should be made legal to reduce AIDS. Of course as a Muslim, I would say no. But he said, if prostitution was medically certified and strictly monitored, it could reduce the spreading of AIDS as well as benefit for the government to charge taxes. (Macam Amsterdam lah pulak)

Because, how do you control sex urges of young men? How do you release the muscle tension (that's what he said) of young men? We don't want young women to get pregnant, and young men don't want to carry out the responsibility of marriage at the age of 16 to 21. We are born as a sexual being. Sex is a need. And for once I didn't hear a man blaming women for their sexual urges, but then again, he's not a Muslim (Or any other religion that prevents premarital sex - but he said he's a Christian. Maybe not a Catholic?)

But how do you prevent it? People kept saying, we need to increase our faith. The problem now, people are lacking in faith to God. Unwanted teenage pregnancies and babies being thrown in garbage is because humans are lacking faith. But how do you make people to become more faithful to God than lust? How do you ignore your desires when hormones are raging? Even a pious man will have those desires as we are created weak. Yes, we can always ask God to guide us, but what about those who won't listen. Do we just let AIDS roaming and spreading? Do we let people keep throwing babies? Do we have the ability to separate men and women?

“Allah would make the burden light for you, for the human being was created weak.”
[Sûrah al-Nisâ’: 28]

How do you prevent lust? Cover women up from head to toe? I will always wonder if that will ever be the solution since people are making it into such a big deal. But my mother said, it doesn't matter if you cover your body and only your eyes are visible. A woman is a woman, even if you can't see it, you know what is underneath.

Wallahualam. I pray for Allah to give me guidance and hidayah, since sometimes I may stray. I hope he shall show us the right path to heaven and protect me from sins. InsyaAllah.

Saturday, October 1, 2011


LDR, bukan Light Dependent Resistor ye. Long Distance Relationship. ;P ok.. lawak bodoh..

I hate that we're far apart.
I hate that he's always seem so busy or make himself busy just so he can past the time without me.
I hate not knowing what he's doing at the moment.
I hate that he doesn't ask me how I'm doing.
I hate when he asks me to keep myself busy too.
I hate when we're on skype and he's chatting with someone else.
I hate the fact that he doesn't divide his time for me.
I hate that he doesn't know how to make up with me on line or on the phone.
I hate that when he feels like leaving, he just leaves especially when I'm upset with him.
I hate that he doesn't tell me about anything!!!!!

Oh God! I feel like strangling him! grrrrrrr... >.< I don't understand what is it that is so hard to comply to my needs! I JUST WANT SOME ATTENTION.. AND I'M NOT GETTING ANY! Our timing has always been off and it's even worse now! because it's morning when it's midnight, and it's afternoon when it's maghrib.. I hate this..

 9 more months.. Just 9 more months..


"I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing"