Wednesday, December 31, 2008


can you believe it? it's already 2009.. FINALLY!! HOLIDAY!! I am so in need of a break!! huhuhu... the time flies by so fast.. and in 15 days is my birthday.. huhuhu.. I'm getting older.. :(

what can i tell you about 2008? i am not so sure, how to summarize 2008.. it has been a good year.. except at the end of it.. was a little, well, f***ked up.. but that's the past..

moving on, i had a great new year's eve.. simple but i was satisfied and truly happy.. it was an intimate evening.. only me and him, i cooked spaghetti bolognese and drank some sparkling tea, watch Wicker Park.. and he bought me a New Year's gift!! maybe Birthday + New Year's gift - TWILIGHT!! i was shocked!! he ordered it online coz we couldn't find any english Twilight in Moscow, every book was translated in Russian.. it was so sweet of him.. and well, i didn't get anything for him..huhuhu.. I'll get him something later, though, i did bought for him a United Colours of Bennington black pants.. does that count?? :P later we went to Fareez's room.. karaoke-ing, and telling some stupid-funny stories.. i had a great night.. :)

Our New Year Dinner

Twilight - the gift that bB gave.. :)

every year, i had my ups and downs.. it was good in the beginning, but i was a little unhappy at the end of 2008.. i don't really know why.. and it was upsetting him as well.. maybe it's the stress I've been going through.. 3rd year of medicine is killing me!! @_@ and this is just the first semester.. oh God, how i wish this 2 semesters would fly off as quickly as possible.. i still haven't settled my credits.. i think, all that's left is pathophysiology and pathoanatomy.. although, i am not so worried about pathoanatomy but quite worried about pathophysiology.. *sigh*

i have decided to go back home this winter holiday.. just to release all the stress, plus i need to get a new passport... ;D

and owh! every year I'll put up my resolutions on my blog.. if anyone was following my friendster blog, they would know.. unfortunately, i deleted that blog due to an argument i had with bB.. now, i regretted what i had done.. regretted it so bad!! damn it! owh well, lets learn from the past..

I did remember some resolutions from last year though, one of them was settle all my exams on time or get zachut(credits) on time.. something like that.. haha! that's the only thing that i remember.. oh well, now..


  • settle all my credits on time.. ( i hope i can)

  • pray more, be more spiritual and a little more religious but still keep an open mind. :)

  • go to every concert held in Moscow or KL.. [haha! can i add this to my resolutions? i regretted not going for Avril Lavigne's concert so much!! She held a concert in Moscow(June) and KL(August) and I didnt go for any of them!! damn it la.. dah la she's my favourite artist since high school!! :(( BSB punye concert in Moscow pon tak pegi.. huhuh..]

  • be more patient, and less impulsive

  • be more loving

  • study harder

  • be more open minded

  • less complaining.. and be more grateful

  • kurangkan keborosan, be more careful with my spending.. *sigh*

i think that's all for this year.. :) i hope i could fulfill my resolutions..

after all that writing, i think i regretted most things that had happened in 2008.. most times i do feel like turning back time.. but there's no hope of doing so.. so i shall declare 2008 - MY MOST REGRETFUL YEAR.. i am rarely a regretful person, i don't really know what happened last year.. huhuhu.. well, just hope that 2009 shall bring me more prosper and i shall try to think before i act!! :D


Saturday, December 27, 2008


i was walking back to my hostel after class just now, and the sun set caught my eyes.. the Sun was HUGE and BRIGHT!! it was just so GORGEOUS...

cantek kan? :)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

7 days and still counting...

finished my Hygiene and Ecology exam yesterday.. so far so good, i didnt get any really2 hard questions.. but to get 5 is still 50-50.. now all i can do is pray to Allah.. :) and i passed my written part of pathan colloq.. alhamdulillah.. so now, kene buat the oral part of the colloq plak.. colloq - short form utk colloquium.. so, kalau takde oral part, pggl test je la..

Owh, called my mom after i got back from class.. she said Nabilla got into SMART.. heheh.. and she said Saddam tak bg die masok SABS coz nnt die jadi lg spoil.. i see no difference really.. SMART pon cam byk je bdak spoil.. haha.. tp bdak2 lg pandai kot.. haha! :P any SABS-ian reading this, jgn la amek hati sgt ye.. so, the legacy continues.. Saddam sorang je yang kat SABS.. nanti mesti Nabilla start tny, "time kaklong dulu, ade tak cikgu 'what-so-ever' ajar kaklong?"... (but this time i can say, "gi tanye abg Man". haha!)

i used to be in MGPS, during my primary school.. and she entered to MGPS also.. fyi, my age gap with Nabilla is 9 years.. so when she was 7 i was already 16, can u imagine her asking me about who is my standard 1 teachers? she asked me until she finished standard 6.. of course la i dont remember my primary school teachers!! name tak igt la.. tp kalau tgk muke bley igt kot.. [kot~] :P haha!

i think, last year, i went to SMART, to get some of my certificates copy certified, and suddenly my ex-physics teacher yelled out my name.. "MAIMUNA!!".. i was like (in my heart la), "uikss.. cikgu igt name aku lg.. dah 2 thn kot tak jumpe and the most embarassing part was.. i didnt remember her name.. i was like, "ape ek name cikgu ni? aiseyh.. cikgu igt, i plak tak igt.." malu giler!! and i just said, "eh, cikgu~".. and salam her.. lol~!! well, i know her name la now.. i told the story to fareha.. and she told me her name.. Pn. Rohana ( ke Rahana?) ahaks.. tatau la.. buat malu je..

ok now, kene get back to updating my notes..

and owh! today, the snow finally has fallen.. igtkan tak snow sampai january.. the snow is a late this year.. (global warming?)

later y'all~

Sunday, December 21, 2008

10 days and counting..

oh God.. i cant wait for the holidays.. let it be 1 week or not, i need a break.. fyi, in russia, there's no Christmas holiday on the 25th.. so we'll be celebrating New Year's instead.. the holiday is until 11, right after the Orthodox Christian Christmas on the 7th January..

i have pathoanatomy colloq tomorrow... and Hygiene exam on Tuesday.. damn it! teruk betul Ali, ade ke patut change exam date.. kate on Thursday, suke2 hati je.. tau la die lecturer tp.... ishh.. tension betol..

i have been studying pathan since Friday.. dah Sunday pon tak habis2 lg hafal the questions and answers.. why is it so hard to concentrate?!! :(

well, gotta get back to my studying.. i hope I'll pass tomorrow.. and i don't think I'll score 5 for hygiene seeing that i could only study it for one night.. naseb baik multiple choice.. well, just hope that 1 night is enough to study 329 questions.. arghhh!! *sob*sob*


Thursday, December 18, 2008

my [♥] is the worst kind of weapon

maybe it is better to be heartless than to have your heart broken so many times...

It’s my heart you’re stealing
It’s my heart you take
It’s my heart you’re dealing with
And it’s my heart you’ll break

It’s my heart you’re taking
It’s breaking bit by bit
It’s my heart you’re dealing with
But you don’t know about it

If you’d feel like I feel
And if you’d know what I know
I don’t think you’d ever play me
I know you’d never play me

"The Perishers - My Heart"

bicaraku dengan sepi, sangat kejam kata hati...

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Rantai Rasa Cinta

Dari pandangan aku

masih kita usaha

berpaut dengan rantai rasa cinta

Kau pasti menungguku

ku juga begitu

berpaut dengan rantai rasa cinta

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia..

Ku tak mahu binasa

biar kita selalu

berpaut dengan rantai rasa cinta....

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia..

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia

Usah kau cuba tuk menangis

untuk bahagia

Thursday, December 11, 2008

but first... finish med school

Young Docs Walk a Tightrope

After completing a gruelling course, young doctors have another challenge to face – a demanding two-year housemanship where they rely on lots of coffee, cope with very little sleep and put up with public chastisements.

SHE had always wanted to be a doctor but six months into her housemanship, she snapped and just couldn’t take the stress anymore.

*Kavitha found the workload and endless hours on call a real burden, sapping her energy and spirit. Today, says her concerned father *Gurdave, she is close to having a nervous breakdown and is seeing a psychiatrist for counselling.

“The work load was too heavy and the hours too long. When she was on call, she sometimes had to work for up to 36 hours straight. She wants to be transferred to another hospital but every hospital is just as bad.

“But I don’t want her to walk away from the profession. I have spent close to RM400,000 on her education. I don’t want anything back but just for her to get through this,” says Gurdave.

Unfortunately, housemanship is taking its toll on many young doctors like Kavitha. Statistically, she is one of at least five housemen a month who is found to be suffering from mental illness.

Health Ministry director-general Tan Sri Dr Ismail Merican revealed last week that many of the medical graduates are unable to cope with their housemanship.

“The mental cases range from psychotic to neurotic. Psychotic cases include delusions and hallucinations, and neurotic behaviour includes anxiety, fear and anger due to the competitive environment.’’

On-call system

The term houseman refers to an advanced student or graduate in medicine gaining supervised practical experience. In Malaysia, it is compulsory for doctors to undergo housemanship for two years after completing their medical degree. During housemanship, they are rotated among six departments – emergency department, medical, paediatric, general surgery, orthopaedic, and obstetrics and gynaecology – where they are attached to for four months each.

Over the years, those undergoing housemanship have been voicing their unhappiness but these complaints have generally fallen on deaf ears. The biggest grouse housemen have seems to be the on-call system, where they are sometimes subjected to work 36 hours at a stretch.

*Pedro, who is into his sixth month of housemanship, says he has on occasion worked 38 hours straight with only one hour rest in-between.

“In some hospitals, the patient load is non-stop as they have to accept referrals from other hospitals,” says Pedro, adding that this is more apparent at hospitals in Johor Baru and Klang which are the busiest in the country.

Housemen are provided facilities such as beds and they can sleep if they have no cases to attend to. However, this is rarely the case and the most sleep they get is about two to three hours. And that is only when the housemen take turns to sleep, says *Lalitha whose housemanship stint ended recently.

“We force ourselves to carry on. What keeps us going is coffee and tea. It is only after we are no longer on call that we can go back and crash until the next day,” she says. Depending on the department and the hospital they are serving in, housemen could be on-call for up to 15 days a month. Lalitha says that during her first posting, she would work from 6am to midnight every day.

“We go home, have a bath and sleep for five hours before the cycle is repeated. They are preparing us for the on-call,” she says.

Shortage of doctors

Dr Kuljit Singh, president of the Malaysian Society of Otorhinolaryngology and Head Neck Surgeons (MSO- HNS), believes that one factor that can cause high pressure for trainee doctors is the shortage of doctors at some hospitals.

“Some hospitals have a lower doctor to patient ratio, so the housemen, being the lowest category in the medical fraternity, have to take on a lot of the work and responsibility, especially the lousy tasks, in the name of training,” he says.

Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia Medical Centre (PPUKM) dean and director Prof Datuk Dr Lokman Saim agrees, saying that pressure from their heavy workload can push some doctors to the brink of breaking down.

“It is normal for a doctor to be on duty for more than 36 hours with on-call duties. In Europe, this has been recognised as a problem and they have passed a law to state that doctors cannot work more than 12 hours straight. Maybe we need laws like that if we want to improve our doctors’ welfare,” he opines.

Under the European Working Time Directive in 2004, junior doctors can work no more than 56 hours a week. They can work up to 13 hours a day but then have to have an 11-hour break.

Acknowledging that the number of doctors in Malaysia may still be too low for such a ruling, Dr Lokman nevertheless thinks it is a possible solution for the future.

Dr Lokman thinks that the problem of housemen suffering from mental problems can be prevented at the entry point of the profession.

“Currently, for public universities, students are selected by the Higher Education Ministry based on their exam results and co-curriculum activities. No interviews are conducted, so there is no way for the individual medical schools to assess their attitude and character. If we get the right candidates for the programme, we can be sure of the doctors we produce,” he argues.

However, he admits that it is not a foolproof method but he believes that it will help weed out the obviously unsuitable candidates.

“Many students are forced by their parents to take up medicine and these students end up very stressed because the course is difficult and they are not motivated. It will help us ascertain if a candidate has the right attitude and disposition to be a doctor,” he adds.

He highlights that a majority of students who fail and drop out of medicine are those who are forced by their parents into the field.


But for those who successfully completed their degree, the challenge is dealing with the hospital environment.

They may have to contend with a handful of senior medical officers with the “Napoleon” complex who make the lives of the housemen difficult, says Dr Kuljit Singh who had served in government hospitals before branching out into private service.

“There is sometimes an element of bullying and high-handedness in the way some senior medical officers and consultants treat their junior house officers. They become Little Napoleons and are dictatorial. They say they went through the same regiment and that made them good doctors, so the newbies need to go through the same process,” says Dr Kuljit.

A senior doctor in the Johor Baru hospital, *Zul is also not happy with the treatment dished out to housemen.

“I have seen the degrading treatment given to medical officers, even after they have finished their housemanship,” he says. Zul himself was a houseman in the same hospital a few years ago and he says nothing has changed.

“If they talk about your work then it’s all right, but then they go into character assassination,” he says.

The housemen are usually screamed at by their specialists in the wards and in the clinics, he adds.

“The words used in front of patients are sometimes so degrading that in my opinion, it is these specialists who are the ones suffering from ‘mental woes’,” says Zul.

Those who fought back would be referred to the head of department who would either try to rectify the situation or extend the posting of the houseman, adds Zul.

A few of the housemen say there have been times when they were threatened with extensions in the department by medical officers.

Zul says that three of his friends quit the medical profession during their housemanship, with one of them ending up as a housewife.

“One of them would get anxiety attacks whenever she came to the ward. The thing is she was an excellent student,” says Zul.

*Maniam was barely a week into his housemanship when a specialist yelled at him in front of a patient.

“He asked me if I paid to pass my exams and also said I was the worst doctor he had ever come across. How can he say such a thing when I was there for only a week? They tend to look down on us as if we don’t know anything,” says Maniam.

However, Dr Kuljit, who taught at Universiti Malaya, shares that many students today are more pampered and have led a sheltered life, and thus cannot stand the pressure. Many come from a protected family environment, so when they are reprimanded, they get stressed and depressed. He believes that medical schools need to instil more soft skills, particularly interpersonal skills, in their students.

“We have many top scorers taking up medicine but many of them lack people skills. These students can manage with their studies but when they start working, they don’t know how to deal with their superiors, especially when they get scolded by them,” he says.

Pedro, on the other hand, does not have problems with any of the senior doctors he has to work with and says they are gems.

“I have no complaints because they teach us a lot. They offer us the opportunity to learn complicated procedures. They are willing to teach you even if there are possible complications. Even the specialists take time to teach you,” he adds.

President of the Malaysian Medical Association Datuk Khoo Kar Lin is unsure about the cause of mental problems faced by the doctors although he says the finding by the Health Ministry is a concern. He says a survey should be done on housemen to find out the causes.

“We have not received any complaints (about housemanship). I went through the system myself and from my impression it is not different from say 30 years ago. They are not being more overworked than yesterday,” says Khoo, adding that he enjoyed his housemanship.

“Every profession will have its challenges. We have to be cautious because people will always think that they are victimised and work longer hours compared to others,” adds Khoo.

President of the Malaysian Mental Health Association Datin Dr Ang Kim Teng says that housemanship could be a contributing factor to mental problems.

“It is not the job that causes it but the underlying susceptibility. Some people are more prone to this and the job stress could be a triggering factor. Factory workers, policemen and teachers can also face the same problem.

“It all depends on the individual’s ability to cope with stress. A lot of housemen go through their stints without any problems,” says Dr Ang.

Lalitha enjoyed her housemanship despite the many challenges in the different departments.

“We know this awaits us in the field. When I first started, I asked myself what I was doing here. The doctors pick on your mistakes and are not bothered if you have enough rest,” says Lalitha who got used to housemanship by her third posting.

She believes adaptation is the hardest and those who studied in foreign universities may have it tougher as they may not understand some of the terms used.

For *Tan, her social life took the backstage and she had to cut down on spending time with her family and friends.

“Those were the times when I thought of quitting but the feeling passed very quickly,” she says.

Tan didn’t really encounter any problems with the staff but has friends who have had books thrown at them and senior staff nurses giving them a hard time.

“At the end of the day, I am satisfied that I have somehow made a difference in a patient’s life. I don’t have any regrets getting into this line,” she says.

For Pedro, the only time he feels discouraged is when he has to get up at 5.30am for work.

“Once you get there it’s over in a snap,” he shares, adding that he feels really good when patients come out of life-threatening situations.

Pedro also says with all the running around they have to do, housemanship is the best weight loss programme.

“I can now fit into pants which I wore in Form Five!” he quips.

Prevention at entry

Dr Lokman Saim thinks that the problem can be prevented at the entry point of the profession, which is the medical course.

“Currently, for the public university, students are selected by the Higher Education Ministry based on their exam results and co-curriculum activities.

“No interviews are conducted, so there is no way for the individual medical schools to asses their attitude and character. If we get the right candidates for the programme, we can be sure of the doctors we produce,” Dr Lokman argues.

He admits that it is not a foolproof method but he believes that it will help.

“Many students are forced by their parents to take up medicine and these students end up very stressed because the course is difficult and they are not motivated. It will help us ascertain if a candidate has the right attitude and disposition to be a doctor,” he adds.

He highlights that the majority of students who fail and drop out of medicine are those who are forced by their parents into the field.

*Names have been changed to protect identities

The Star Online

Sunday, November 30, 2008

loving it!

i find this song to be really cool~!!

tell me what u think.. enjoy~ ;)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

don't let the bed bugs bite

you know how the phrase goes "Good night, Don't let the bed bugs bite"... yeah.. unfortunately, not letting the bed bugs bite during sleep is not as easy as the phrase says.. lol~!!

i always get bitten by bed bugs.. i don't know why.. i never seen it bit bB or my roommate.. :(

it wouldn't have gotten this red if i tak jirus dengan air panas.. but it was so itchy that i couldn't stand it.. and you're not supposed to scratch it.. so the only way for not scratching is to pour with hot water, which i think is better than scratching.. at least the itch went away... :) now all I need is a week for the scars to go away... huhuhu..

selalu kaki yang jadi mangsa gigitan bed bugs.. (better leg than any other parts.. thank God!)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

slipped for nothing

it snowed so heavily yesterday!

i didn't go for the lecture in the morning.. well, it's nice to sleep during winter.. its cold outside and the bed is so warm and comfy..but- i had to get back to reality..

i went for Russian class which is after the lecture.. and decided to walk to uni.. [smart move.. very smart move]. although i had my boots on, it won't guarantee you of not falling.. i didn't fell.. thank God! but i slipped twice.. and every time i slipped, my heart felt like it skips a beat.. *sigh* and i had to go through this for ~5 months every single year!!

When i arrived at uni, i saw Shalu walking back, i thought she decided to bunk Russian.. we ran into each other and she said "Russian class cancel, the teacher's sick".. WHAT?!! AFTER ALL THAT? TRYING TO PENETRATE(as Svetlana puts it) THE SNOW - CLASS CANCEL plak.. *sigh*.. slipping on the ice for nothing.. bwat penat jek.. baik sambung tdo jek tadi.. sabo je la..

after that i had radiology class in Pervomaiskaya (Первомайская).. which took 1 1/2 hours to arrive by metro.. like Thamil said "its like going to Ipoh and come back"(from KL anyway).. jauh giler hospital tu!! damn exhausted.. dah la tak dpt seat mase dlm metro.. standing for 1 1/2 hours.. :(

we stopped at Ashan City for awhile.. makan.. lapar giler!! and did some groceries shopping..

kat sane jumpe mate, mayein and zizi.. they were bringing a newcomer with her family to makan too i supposed.. kinda reminded me when my mom was here sending me.. hehehe.. ;)

after we were done.. balik~!! the snow had stopped when we were heading back..
this is just the fake snow, today the snow were all gone.. don't worry, the real snow will come in 2 weeks time.. :P

the view from my room

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Health Tip: Microwave Your Toothbrush

If you're like most people, you get a new toothbrush every six months, but you really should be changing your toothbrush more often, like every three to four months. When the bristles get worn and lose their rigidity, they don't remove plaque as well. But you should also do some maintenance within that three months, when your toothbrush is just sitting out in the open. After all, think about all the germs and bacteria floating around that would love to attach themselves to your moist toothbrush.
So to prevent colds, flu, and other sicknesses, Reader's Digest recommends that once or twice a week you run your toothbrush through the microwave on high for 10 seconds immediately before brushing. If someone in your home is sick, you may want to sterilize it in the microwave each time you brush. If you're the one who's sick, after the illness passes, ditch your old toothbrush and replace it with a new one.

Monday, October 27, 2008



lol~ i know this might sound a little childish, but i sooooooooooooooooooooo love HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!!

the 3rd installment was released on the 24th of October.. and i am just so sad that i cant watch it.. i just have to wait for the DVD release.. :(

if only the cinema in Moscow doesn't dub every single English movie into Russian.. *sigh*

*can I have this dance?*

Sunday, October 26, 2008

A single Spotlight

I've just finished watching Grey's Anatomy episode 5.. love the episode!! especially when Derek gave Meredith a Kidney-in-a-Jar.. *hearts*

I want a Kidney-in-a-Jar too..metaphorically.. I just want him to give me something that i really really want.. I just need to figure out what that THING is..

he's going to a concert next month.. some metal band's concert and i can't follow coz its 'dangerous' and i might get suffocated in a mosh-pit.. it's not my thing, i just like to follow him wherever he goes.. but i can't.. sheesh.. why do guys need so much space anyway? i know I'm being a little childish and selfish here.. I'm sorry that i don't have friends that like to go to concerts or at least the same interest as i do..

you'd think its easy to actually find friends but its not for me.. i hate going to new places.. i hate the first day attending primary school, i hate the first day attending secondary school, i hate the first day of college and the first day in Moscow.. just cause i have to find new friends..

i like going to concerts.. but never really had the chance to go.. first concert i went was the one bB brought me to - Ozzy Osbourne's concert.. and i don't even like Ozzy.. 2nd one was MUSE and that was THE BEST CONCERT EVER!!! but i can only compare 2 concerts coz i only went for 2 concerts.. the only person that i actually think i could bring along to a concert that i like in my sister Nabilla bcoz we like the same artists - but she's like 12!! and I'm 21!! it's not really a good combination, we'll probably have fun but i have to take care of her - bring her to the toilet if she wants to go - and pay for the tickets.. and it wouldn't be so much fun for me.. at least if she's 16.. *sigh* then I'd probably be too old to go to an Avril Lavigne's concert.. *cry*!

right now - what i want is to go to a concert of my most favourite artist... coming back home with 2 tickets of.. let say, Justin Timberlake's concert on my table... *SCREAM*!!!! that would be so cool!! or even 2 tickets to Bolshoi Theatre to see Swan Lake Ballet is a dream come true.. :( I've only watched 1 musical so far - Cats. Its was great but i couldn't understand them.. they were in Russian and i was just starting my russian class at that time.. hrmmm...

I know i am a little demanding.. but I WANT WHAT I WANT!! and patience is not a good friend of mine.. *sigh* i thought i had grown-up.. but i guess i haven't..

I wanted to go to Backstreet Boys Concert last summer in Moscow.. but no one i know wanted to go with me.. He asked me to go with my friends, he wanted to watch MU vs Chelsea UEFA championship finals.. they fell on the same date.. damn-it!

i like to spend my time with him, even if we were fighting.. i like his presence, it makes me happy even if i don't show it... but sometimes he need his space, which sometimes just annoys me.. he'll leave me alone for 1 year once he graduated and we wont know if we'll get the same place once we start working or not.. so what's wrong with me wanting to be with him all the time?

Saturday, October 18, 2008

kumen's bday

last week, we had a surprise bday for kumar a.k.a kumen... :)

actually his bday had pass for almost a month already but we all were just so busy... finally, a date was decided to held the party - 9.10.2008.

the whole classmates attended and the theme was "black&white"..

so, that night, all of us got ready and went to Dom 35, to kumen's room... sugan prepared the room, and we waited for kumen to come back, coz he went out for a while....

we ordered PAPA JOHN's pizza for the night and unfortunately, there was no birthday cake.. but everything went great!!

eikin sedih kelaparan, menunggu kedatangan bday boy [well, actually, everyone was]

"surprised" bday boy came in

makan-makan.. yum-yum!

the pizzas of the day [or night] :)

the boys and girls in black and white[except the bday boy]

kumar's dicipline teacher [that's what he called sasha]

promoting Papa John's Pizza

Saturday, October 11, 2008

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

raya-ing weekends!

friday - beraya @ za and eikin's (girl's night)

gossip girls

with seniors (kak ida's & kak umu's classmate)

from the top

my lovely classmates
saturday - beraya @ anna and ipan's


bB entertaining the phone instead of the guests.. ape la!

when everyone had left..

i had a really tiring weekend.. the guests were very impressed that only and bB cooked all the meals..
i cooked the beef and chicken rendang, nasi carrot and mee bandung, while bB cooked kuah kacang, nasi impit, and ayam masak kicap..
i was very curious why did bB cooked ayam masak kicap, then kak ami said it's johorian style - makan nasi impit with masak kicap.. "ohh~ begitu rupenye"
sorry i didn't upload any pics of the food, it's because i forgot to take the picture of the food.. :(
anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! :)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

all grown up?

I've decided to grow up... :)

i remember when i was 18, i wrote something in my friendster blog(which i already deleted and deeply deeply regretted that i ever did that) that i never want to grow up.. i hate the responsibilities, the hardship that "grown ups" have to go through.. and i never want that.. everything just seems so difficult and not fun at all but i realised that everything depends on the individuality. We can have as much fun as a child even as a grown up.

During my last summer, i was spending time with bB in kL.. he wanted to carry me on his back, and i love him carrying me on his back because it makes me feel like a child.. - that particular day, i rejected his offer and said "i dah besar".. (sounds a bit funny).. and from that day on I've decided to grow up.. and besides I AM 21 YEARS OLD, how can i not grow up? [i am still manja by the way and dependant.. but i think i am more reasonable.. heeeee.. :D well, he said so anyway.]

bB said I've become a partly different person.. i don't really know.. i like being whoever i want to be.. and i guess i want to grow up.. for how long I'm not so sure but i know I'll always be young in my heart.. cheers~

Sometimes i miss my fantasies.. witches and wizards, magic and castles, princes and princesses.. time is not on my side right now.. one day, i'll bring them back alive.. someday~

"I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope..."

- Meredith Grey

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

So in Love

this is a scene from Grey's Anatomy Season 5 episode 4..


i just love Meredith and Derek.. huhu~

Tuesday, September 30, 2008


Finally, raya is here.. though not much celebration is done in Moscow but i did get 2 days break.. at least the lecturers were understanding.. although we had to ganti the class on other days of the week.. nonetheless, holiday is still holiday.. huhu..

I'm planning to make some cookies tonight.. i'll upload pics later.. and I'll be doing an "open room" on Sunday..

I didn't go to the embassy today.. didn't feel like going.. there will be another open house in embassy on Saturday.. maybe I'll go.. i don't know yet..

i went to Mega just now and bought 2 new trench coat for winter.. hehe.. I've been wanting a trench coat since i did my pre-med here.. but its so hard to find my size.. since you know, I'm "petite".

just now, me and bB went into ZARA.. and there was only 1 coat available with the size XS.. ape lg?.. if i waited the next time to buy it, it might not be there anymore.. i wanted to buy only 1, but then bB was interested on another design.. because he said the one i chose was a bit dull - plain black and not for winter, more for autumn or spring. The one he chose was with petak2 design.. so i decided to take both.. so, that's my raya shopping spree!!


Tuesday, September 23, 2008

got me thinking all over again

guys.. they can such such SUCH an idiot sometimes! they act stupid and careless.. making their own judgement without your consent! really!

i don't care if you make me cry because of sadness, i would be thrilled if you made me cry for happiness but NEVER, EVER, make me cry because of anger! NEVER! don't make me feel so angry until i cry.. because its bad.. it just suck! I'll hate you for it.. and when i hate u.. I'll start thinking about breaking up.. and i don't want to break up because i love you.. but had to make me angry, you had to make me cry.. you- urgh!! i don't even know what to call you anymore coz you'll just do it again!!

I'm already imagining about breaking up.. that's just bad, that's really bad.. coz one day, when i say it, I'll mean it.. I'll be serious about it.. but you don't know that.. u never ask.. and i had to post it on a stupid blog just for you and the whole world probably to find out.. and you'll get mad at me for writing something personal.. but i don't care.. because you don't seem care! and then you'd say that I'm unappreciative.. coz u done more things for me than i realize.. sure2.. except you missed the part of NOT MAKING ME CRY..

Human aren't supposed to be perfect.. but you're supposed to be perfect for me.. that's why i chose you.. now u just got me thinking all over again..

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Selamat berpuasa~!

17 days till raya~!! hehehe..
well, i've been back in moscow for almost a week now, classes have begun when i got here.. but there's not much catching up to do since most classes were cancelled or just learning the introduction during the first week.
i have just officially unpacked everything in my bag and rearrange my wardrobe cupboard.
well, there's nothing much to do and nothing much going on anyway. it has been a hectic week. i didnt even have the time to actually catch up with my classmates..
some of my classes are held in hospitals.. travelling to class is so tiresome!! - have to wake up early, have to stand in the metro, have to take the bus, have to walk... really! :(
and owh! ipan's room is infested with cockroaches!! really! it is so disgusting! so we decided to put some "ubat bunuh lipas" around his room and all the lipas went berzerk yesterday.. they were falling, coming out of everywhere and landed everywhere even on my hands!! yuck! i feel like i was paranoid being in that room! I HATE COCKROACHES! so last night we put the bug poison and today there were so many dead cockroaches on the floor.. creepy..
so anyway.. that's all i guess.. and owh! my roomate got a new boyfriend! huhu..

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

timE is fLying

oh gosh..

sorry that i haven't been updating.. I'm just enjoying my time, my holiday.. to be in front of the computer during the time i have in Malaysia just feels like a bit of a wasted time to me.. huhuhu..

anyway, I'm leaving for Moscow in 2 weeks.. how sad.. i feel like this holiday seemed shorter.. i have no idea why.. 2 months flew by just like that.. *sigh*.. and i think i spent too much money in KL.. oh how i LOVE the sales!!!

owh well, hrmm.. i might plan to come back late next summer because i wanna enjoy Europe.. but.. we'll see how the $$$ situation is first.. eheh..

well then, i have to get things put together before leaving Malaysia.. i have jeans to be cut, groceries to be bought, baju raya to send to the tailor, medical check-up report to be done and SO MUCH MORE TO DO!! and on top of that i don't have the car.. so its so limited to do things by myself because i have to actually call up my parents and its the last thing i would do to actually ask my parent to do my chores.. *sigh*sigh*sigh*

On top of everything.. i had a great time in Malaysia.. i even went to bB's house in batu pahat.. lepak there for a few days.. sorta getting to know his family..
so, see you guys in Moscow!

Friday, June 27, 2008


yeay! I'm home..
how i am so happy to be home.. :)) *senyum sampai ke telinga*
everyone's home.. well, at least until July.. then my brothers will start their semesters..
so its probably just me, kakak and nabilla at home.. and of course my parents... :(

anyway, before i came back, i stayed a week in Egypt.. u know, just jalan-jalan, makan angin.. :)

here's what happened.

17th June 2008
- Arrived at Cairo International Airport
- bB's cousin, Affan picked us up at the airport. Since we arrived at night, there's really nothing much we can do left.
- Checked in at Malaysian Hall
- Sleep

18th June 2008
- woke up at 7.30 am. Got ready and left the building at 8.30 am.
- drove to Alexandria which is in the northern Egypt. It is situated beside the Mediterranean sea. It has a spectacular view of the sea!! damn nice.
- we went to the oldest library in the world which is the Bibliotheca Alexandria.
- We had seafood for lunch. yum2. damn kenyang. huhu..
- left Alexandria around 5 pm and head back to Cairo.
- sampai Cairo, tido~

one of the materials exhibited in the library

mummy's sarcophagus

Mediterranean Sea

19th June 2008
- Jalan-jalan in Cairo
- went to see the Pyramids of Giza
- went to the bazaar and bought souvenirs
- Affan bargain for us since he knows how to speak Arabic. So we didn't get cheated. huhu...
- went to Al-Azhar mosque and university.
- rested at Malaysian Hall the whole evening.
- rushed to the train station around 9.15, our train was leaving at 10 pm.
- ran into Mawi (yup, the AF winner - he was shooting "jejak Mawi" in Egypt. :P) on the way out of Malaysian Hall. Didn't get to take his picture though bcoz we were rushing..
- arrived at the train ngam-ngam pukol 10.

Pyramids of Giza

the Sphinx


20th June 2008
- 11 hours in the train. dah la sejuk giler dlm train tu..
- watched the sunrise (cantek giler!)
- arrive in Luxor
- spent the whole day in Luxor
- we went to Karnak Temple and Luxor Temple
- didn't get to go to Valley of the Kings and Queens though, because they were on the West Bank of Nile River and they were too far, we didn't have much time on our hands.
- had lunch in McDonald's. :P
- prayed, and made our way to the train station
- the train was late 2 hours. :(
- watched the sunset in the train. it was even more gorgeous than the sunrise
- arrive in Aswan at 11 p.m
- checked into hotel, had dinner and went to sleep

Karnak Temple

Luxor Temple

Luxor Train Station

21st June 2008
- trip to Abu Simbel was canceled. it was hot (40°C - 43°C!!), and didn't have enough time
- went to the damp. a really big dam, which controls the depth on the Nile river so that Egypt wont be flooded.. huhu..
- and then we went to Philae Temple. the temple is on an island in the middle of Nile river. not so sure about the history though, because we were backpacking and didn't have enough money to pay for tour guides... lol~ [save budget]
- spent the whole day walking around Aswan. can't get enough of the view of the Nile River. there's no word to describe.
- main2 air sungai Nil. the water was really cold.. it was nice..
- prayed, rest, head back to the train station.
- made our way back to Cairo

Aswan Dam

Philae Temple

Nile River

22nd June 2008
- arrive at Cairo around 10 am.
- i rested the whole day
- bB went some more souvenir shopping

23rd June 2008
- went to the airport at 1 a.m
- checked-in our baggages
- leaving Egypt on the airplane at 4.50 am.
- arrive KLIA at 11 pm local time.

and now, i am just enjoying home.. :)
i miss bB!

*check out more pics in friendster*

Monday, June 9, 2008

bored to death!

this pic looks really cool..

i am so damn bored right now.. i don't know what to do..

i finished my exams already.. so basically i am just waiting for my flight out of Moscow.. huhu.. can't wait to be home!!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

w0rds 0f my [♥]

words of my [h.e.a.r.t],
to let it out is really hard,
because it kept falling apart,
i dont know where to start;

words of my [h.e.a.r.t],
is complicated,
like an expression of an art,
meanings in a secret;

words of my [h.e.a.r.t],
may be predictable,
i may let down my guard,
but only to certain people;

words of my [h.e.a.r.t],
need time to understand,
like the castle of cards,
need time to build and stand.

anna mohamed amin

Saturday, June 7, 2008

bruises on my heart

there's so many things i want to say.. but i don't think you would listen.. and i don't see the point of writing it here.. when u'll never read it..

Thursday, June 5, 2008

RM 2.70

SEE THE TITLE? THAT'S THE NEW HARGA MINYAK! Yerp.. Petrol prices are going off the ceiling and onto the top of KLCC tower!!

I know I rarely care what is going on in Malaysian politics, the law or whatever not there is... but THIS IS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS!! I mean, they (the government) should have warned us (the Malaysians) about it! Not 8-9 hours before the price is going to change... i mean, yeah, i know i am not in Malaysia right now but i can feel the emotions and shock running through every Malaysian...

I mean, increasing the price of something with such short notice! That is absolutely ridiculous! I mean, even if they want to increase the petrol price, like 20 cents every 6 months also would be ok~ not giving the rakyat a heart attack! It’s absurd! Really really ABSURD!

There are other ways to overcome this... like maybe increase the taxes... i mean, people won't really feel the increase of taxes because unlike oil, we don't need to face it everyday.. I mean, we need oil for our car every single day! Of course we're gonna feel the effect, the burden of it...

I really don't know what going on in the heads of our government nowadays... like they're going insane or something... like they really not thinking about the rakyat!

I know they're gonna do some sort of this "rebate" thing... but RM150/year for a motorcyclist is NOT ENOUGH... and i don't remember how much they're giving for bigger vehicles.. But it's not enough...

Ok... even if they do want to increase the oil price, they should have done something about the public transport system... i mean, come on! I am sure everyone knows how public transport system in Malaysia is:

  1. the next komuter need 45 minutes to arrive after the last one left...

  2. there's only 2 LRT gerabak on the busiest station in kL which is the KLCC and it takes 3 - 5 minutes for the next gerabak to arrive on peak hours..

  3. waiting for bus could kill you because of the heat! and the jam we have to face during riding the bus.

  4. bus stops are not convenience

we all know that Malaysians are lazy people... so lazy that even walking 5 minutes is excruciating! Living in Moscow, I know this... from my hostel to the nearest metro station is about 20-25 minutes by walking (probably around 1.5km)... and i do walk sometimes... it's a good form of exercise and Moscow is not as hot as Malaysia... and i realise that moscow people like to walk even with heels! But even so, the bus would come every 10-15 minutes and there would be 4 bus stops on that road to the metro station! See what I mean... on a 1.5km road, there are 4 bus stops! And each stop, stops at the convenience place...1 at the metro station, 1 at the mini market, 1 at the cultural center and 1 exactly infront of my hostel. And I mean RIGHT IN FRONT!

and the gerabak metro... during peak hour in the center where it is the most crowded, the gerabak would come in 50 seconds! 50 SECONDS! NOT EVEN 1 MINUTE! And non-peak hour it would be 5 minutes (and that's like at 11 or 12 at night)... you know, when i went back to Malaysia, jalan2 in kL, i got so used to Moscow metro that when we missed a komuter, we didn't even run for it, we just relaxed and then had to wait 40 MINUTES FOR THE NEXT ONE!! Because in Moscow, we didn't even have to wait for even 1 minute... really~

i know i shouldn't be judging my own country with the country i am currently studying in because they said "hujan emas di negara orang, hujan batu di negara sendiri, tetapi lebih baik di negara sendiri" or something like that.. But there's no harm in making my own country a better place to live in...Right?

when PM came to Moscow, he should have take a look at the transportation system not only about making business connection with Russia... seriously... [ fyi, Moscow has the best transportational system in the world! even the UKs are learning from the Russians]

and more, they could have at least decrease the tol price since the petrol are increasing.. Ok, and it's a good thing that they are decreasing a bit of the road tax... but like i said, i think they should increase the road tax rather than the oil price... because we only pay tax once a year and not everyday..

and the price would probably increase more in AUGUST... Be prepared yeah~

Sunday, June 1, 2008

thinking about it

I dOn'+ wAn+ +0 +h!nk abOut !t,

but i k3p+ +hnk!nG abOu+ !+

& i+ mAk3s m3 f3eL sO sO sAd

3vEry+Im3 I dO +h!nK abOu+ i+ :(

Saturday, May 31, 2008

being silly - AGAIN

damn... i am so hungry right now i think i could it TWO BOXES OF PIZZA + FRIES + SHAURMA NA TARELKE all in one gulp! hahaha.. ok~ maybe not in one gulp.. but i am so damn hungry!



So you're in a relationship and your partner starts nagging. She tells you that you just don't understand her, and that she really wishes that you would just do more "little things."
It's not the big things that make her happy; it's paying attention to the little details and showing you care that is really meaningful. She doesn't necessarily need lavish gifts -- she needs to know you're thinking about her.

Here are some ideas to get you started doing these "little things" she really wants:

1. Rub her feet instead of asking her if she wants you to rub her feet. Make it look like you want to do it.

2. Make her dinner one night. Don't ask her if she wants you to make dinner. Make her dinner before she gets home.

3. Light a candle so that she arrives home to a nice environment instead of coming home to the
glaring lights of the television and other things.

4. Send her a text in the middle of the day telling her "I miss your smile from this morning" or "Last night was amazing!" or "The conversation we had last night was great."

5. Send an eCard in the middle of the day... something cute to remind her how much you really care about her. Send an eCard in the middle of the day... something cute to remind her how much you really care about her.

6. If she's going on a business trip, offer to drive her to the airport or pick her up to make her life that much easier.

7. Let her have control of the remote control. Don't monopolize it for a change. Just give it to her and let her actually sit there and enjoying watching one of her shows. Then you can share one of her interests by watching it with her.

8. Offer to iron one of her shirts or take her clothes to the dry cleaner.

9. Clean up the bathroom without being asked. Don't just sit there and ignore the mess around the toilet. If you know it drives her crazy to see water splashed all around the sink, dry that area after you use it.

10. If you work out together, enjoy it with her instead of rushing through your own workout and then not letting her workout at the same time.

11. Take a shower together, then wash her hair, scrub her back, and give her a spa treatment. Do this and enjoy it!

12. The next time she gives you a massage, give her a massage the next day. Offer it! Don't just say you'll give her a it!

13. Surprise her by making plans. Tell her, "We're going out tonight honey." You can even just go out for a drink or dinner somewhere. It's taking the initiative that's important.

14. Decide on and set aside one night a week as date night. Have a date like when you first started dating.

15. Call her in the middle of the day and just say hello. Don't wait for her to call you.
It can be simple to keep her satisfied. It's not necessarily about what you give her financially or what gifts you give her. That's a cop out. It's the little things. The guy who makes the biggest mistake is the one who ignores their significant other then all of a sudden give them an expensive gift to make up for it. That doesn't make up for it at all


why do i have to tell.. can't he just know?

p/s: minus no 11!