Saturday, May 26, 2012

If Only We Know the Future

Do I care if I'll never get married? 
I wonder if it'll be lonely.
Will the loneliness be unbearable?
Or will my love for Allah swt soar?

Don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't want to get married. I do. It's not that I don't love my bB. I do. But everytime a thought came to me saying that I am ready, another thought will come by and say WE'RE not ready. Or perhaps it's him? He says it's me. I am certain it's him.

I'm searching for so many answers right now. So many questions in my head. I'm searching where my heart truly belongs. Some days I am so confused. I know the answers, and yet I have conflicting thoughts.

Don't worry. There's no other guy. Or girl.

I am just searching for my heart. 

Is it love or is it lust? Or is it just loneliness?

Forgive my rambles. It is just one of those nights.
Have a lovely weekend, everyone. 

1 comment:

fzrzk said...

I asked the same question myself, about being ready.
Truth is, while I was "busy" trying to justify it, I cannot come to myself and say I'm ready back then.

Somehow it just came to me that I may be ready now hehehe. In due time kan ;)