Salam Ramadhan!

Alhamdulillah.. I get to spend another year fasting in the holy month and what a coincident, my off day fell on the first day of Ramadhan. So I get to go home, sahur and berbuka with my family! weee... Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah...

I hope this holy month will bring me peace and gets me closer to Allah swt. I hope I'll be more patient. Hopefully my bosses will be more calmer too! 

The dos and don'ts in Ramadhan

Despite the guide of what to do and what not do to in Ramadhan, I don't think we should restrict our good deeds only in Ramadhan but instead enhance them. They should not stop once Ramadhan is over but to continue doing good things. This is a reminder for me too.

Anyway, I wish all my brothers and sisters in Islam to have a blessed Ramadhan. May this year brings more prosperity to you in this world and the hereafter. InsyaAllah.

Happy Ramadhan peeps! ^_^

Doctor, please help me.

What do you do when your patient in labour keeps complaining that she's in pain? When the husband keep finding you every half an hour to tell you that his wife is in pain.

Painkillers given by the way.


What do you do? What do you do?


What do people back in the old days do when there's no painkillers? No labour inducer? No C-Section?


"Doctor, help me, it's so painful"
And me "Madam, it's normal. You're giving birth. It's supposed to be painful. My vaginal examination won't make your opening open any faster."


I tell you. Giving birth is scary.

Looking for a place to rent?

Anyone looking for a place to rent near Hospital Selayang?

A colleague of mine is looking for a housemate. 

Criteria:

Female, preferably will be or is working in Hospital Selayang.

I can't remember the exact Taman she's staying, but it's a terrace house with 3 bedrooms. RM300/person.

If interested, please contact me. :)

How clean can it be?

Everyone wants a clean and fair election.

I'm not so much into news nowadays since I start working. Not even into facebook so much anymore either. It's just that I don't have time since I started working to get up to date with all these things..

I didn't even register for voting even though I wanted to. I didn't know why I never had the initiative since I was 21 years old even though I told everyone I'll register. Now? A little to late for this year's election. huhu. InsyaAllah in the next 5 years. I'll vote, if I am still living.

Anyway, they say we're getting cheated, but then again who never gets cheated? Who never lies? Who never cheats? Who never steals? But I've lied before, just so I don't get into trouble, or to gain something. I've lied to the radiologist so that I can get an ultrasound appointment stat for my patient. I've lied so many times, that I've lost count. I've also been cheated, lied to and stolen from. Even from the people nearest  to me.

So if you want to blame the government for manipulating us and lying to us, ask yourself, have you never cheat, lie or steal before? If you say you've never done all those things, then good for you but how many of us are as good as that?

Everyone has their own agendas and from my point of view, everyone is just fucking selfish.

Nothing will change until we ourselves change our mentality. Nothing will change until we ourselves change to be a good and honest person. And if that never happens, we'll never have a clean elections.


HAPPY VOTING PEOPLE! ;)

Am not claiming I'm voting for PKR, but I must tell you, this balloon really creeps me out!!I can see it from my room window. It turns and turns, and it's like the eye is looking and watching you!!! Reminds me of Sauron from LOTR! Creeepyyyy! >.<"

Stolen ring

My engagement ring was stolen!

bB's house in Muar was broken into.. twice!! Most of his numimastic collection is gone along with my engagement ring..

I'm so sad..... :(
It took us months to find the perfect ring, and we had to wait another month for the ring to be done, because we had to order my finger size, plus the engraving. Now it's gone.

1 more week till my engagement day. I don't know what's bB's plan is. All I know is, I don't think we can get the same ring done again in 1 week time. Sigh.....


What an unfortunate day... :'(((((
I hope someone finds that motherf**ker who stole everything and cut him into pieces!!! I hope he'll get everything that he deserves! What an asshole. GRRRRRRRRRR.......
Can't we live in an honest environment? I'm so depressed...


I hope nothing bad will happen after this.. Please pray my ceremony will go smoothly..

Extension, is it a bad thing?

I got a threat from my specialist that I might get extended..



Shit...

Lets just hope he was kidding.

Where is my heart?

I'm struggling to find back my passion towards medicine. I used to love it so much. I mean, I still love medicine, but when I am back from work, all I can about is sleep. Even when I am at work, all I can think about is sleep. I WANT SLEEP.

I am lacking in so many things. My supervisors don't think I'm improving. I don't know if I still have that confidence or strength to go on. I don't let my parents know about it, though.

I still wake up at 5 a.m, to be at work by 6 a.m. At times I get to work by 7 a.m because I overslept and I won't have time to review all my patients by 8.30 am, and I get scolded for not knowing my patient's progress or when I forgot to fill in their latest blood results or when I mixed up my patients. And they say "potong 1 jam gaji" because I woke up late. And they'll say "You know, during my time as a houseman I took care of 28 patients!" I understand that, and I am severely impressed by how they did it! Anyway, I never went back on time. I always end up staying 1 or 2 hours later anyway but I won't get that extra pay. They should know right? Even they don't always go back on time either.

By the time I got back, I never open my books. I don't have the mood, because all I want is SLEEP. My precious precious sleep. I want 12 hours of sleep.

The cycle goes on, and I get scolded for not knowing the pathology of a disease or the aetiology or the common symptoms. I get scolded because I never revised at home. Yes, 7 years of med school and I still can't remember what bacterias cause Pneumonia. heh. 5 months of holiday, I didn't even open any books. So, yeah.

I just don't know what will happen. Everyone said it'll get better, but will it really? With my current situation, no one says I'm improving, and I don't even have that feeling where I want to prove them wrong.....

Anyway, apart from my depression. We found the perfect engagement ring for me! Finally!!! Although, we have to order a new size which will take a month. My fingers are too small.. The ring is very simple, so don't expect anything fancy. heee.. =)