Floating in My Head

This thought had been a while in my head.

After my friend got an injury while playing sports, the paramedics asked her to go to the doctors to get it stitched, but she rather let it become a scar rather than having it stitched because she's scared, even though we all know that the doctors would use anaesthesia even for stitching. So basically, we just feel a little pressure going through our skin, NO PAIN. I don't need to tell her that, she knows.

This is not the first time she said she's afraid of going to the doctors. Last year, her period didn't come for 2 months. I asked her to get it checked but she said she's afraid, but it came after a week or so after she told me. So we just let it be.

The question in my head, "Kalau doktor(future) takut dengan doktor, mcm mana?" I mean, we all know the outcome and the complications or the severity of procrastinating check-ups and treatments. We know, how severe stages of a disease is more painful than getting early treatments. Unlike people who doesn't have medical background. They can procrastinate or act ignorant about their symptoms. They have the rights to be scared because they don't know. So why are WE scared? What impact would we put on the society? What kind of message are we sending to the society?

Kalau doktor sendiri pun takut dengan doktor, apatah lagi orang2 yang tak belajar dalam bidang perubatan.

I'm always a little upset at people, who wouldn't go to the hospital to get their symptoms checked properly, who let their sickness dragged until sometimes, they had to undergo major surgery. And yet, I have a (future) doctor friend who is afraid of doctors.. sighhh...

Running on Sunshine

Just finished watching Grey's Anatomy latest episode. Oh My God! My favourite so far! just because I love musicals. hehee.. sebaldi air mata...

"Is this what's love suppose to feel like? is this what love feels for other people? well, other people can do it; Meredith and Derek, Christina and Owen, Bailey's got Eli, Karev got Lucy, even Teddy got that tumour patient husband. I want that, I want us to be like that because I love you. I do!"  

- Calliope Iphigenia "Callie" Torres

I know it'd be good. I'm so sad, I couldn't watch it with bB. He was upset with me. sigh...

I dont deserve your attention

I have this bad habit, where I tend to just let things out of my mouth without thinking. I tell everything to every one and I mean EVERYTHING. Bad, good, it doesn't really matter. Private or Public, everything is just public to me. Everything is normal, everyone does it, everyone hears about it, so why is it such a big deal??

I say everything, anything without thinking what others would thought about it, I say them without thinking the impacts and effects it gives, I say them without thinking what others felt about them.

Maybe I hurt someone along the way, maybe I seem disrespectful. Most of the time, it just never hit me. I don't mean it that way.

bB's so upset about it. 4 years, and I still haven't change this attitude. Its still here, its still the same. It still upsets him. This one little tiny habit of mine that is so hard to change, that is bringing such huge complications.

He wants our relationship to be private. I think if he read about the Lychee post he'd be upset too. Most times, he'll get upset even when I wrote something on his facebook wall or a status about our argument.

How do I keep my mind shut? or at least keep it to myself. I tried, but then I'll forget. They always come back and I feel like I'm the worst person in the world for doing such thing. :'(

Manipulated

Kata saya, "lelaki suka memanipulasi". Kata mereka, "perempuan tidak pernah memahami"...

I'm so pissed off with my boyfriend because he finished my can of lychee which I bought for rm18!!! and he blamed me because I didn't tell him, not to finish it off. wth???

Kempunan laici sangat2 skarang ni tapi duit kekurangan sebab dah hujung bulan... iskk.. sampai nangis2 tadi, tp dia buat "don't know" je.. sbb dia pon takde duit nak ganti balik.. aduuuhh.. sedihnya hati ni!!! T.T

pasal laici pon boleh gaduh sampai nak break-up. grrrrr... geramnya!!!!

ENT

Swollen throats made me loose my appetite..

ps: on the bright side - the snow is melting! and the temperature is finally above zero degree. ;)

Tun Mahathir visits Moscow

Tun Mahathir was actually in Moscow for some work, but Kelab Umno Moscow sent in a request for him to meet with Malaysian students who are pursuing their studies here and they got lucky when Tun said YES! ;)

Unfortunately, the embassy gave limited seats to those who want to meet the legendary Tun Mahathir. Only 300 seats from 2000 of malaysian students all over moscow. So, everyone gave in their names as quick as possible to the student bodies hoping to get seats. Alhamdulillah, I was one of the lucky ones whose name got picked to experience this once in a lifetime event. ;)

Tun gave us an inspiring speech. How we should repay the community once we become successful because it is from the community that we become who we are. There are a lot of us who went overseas and decided not to come back and work, but the way he put it, I don't remember the exact words, it just went straight to my heart why should contribute to our country, why we should work in our own country. It's all because we should contribute to our own community, the people who are the reason why we are here in the first place.

Well, enough of me blabbering. Here's some pics! enjoy! ;))

I was so starstruck at this time until one of the embassy staff had to tap me to move. lol!

Shaking hands with Tun Hasmah. ^.^

Tun Mahathir giving his speech. Photo from where I sat. Don't mind my 3.2 megapix camera.

Picture from the tv in front of me.

bB having his moment.

my moment.

another moment. even when everyone was already going off the stage. The person in the middle is the Ambassador - Dato Zainol Abidin.

Me and bB in the bus heading back to the hostel.

Some pics are from my friends in facebook. I didn't wait until Tun left though because bb suddenly had a stomach ache. >.<" oh well, seeing him is already a rare opportunity so I'm still grateful. ;)

Happy Women's Day

It's a public holiday today in Russia, and all the women are carrying flowers. I wonder why back home, we only get flowers or gifts only on Valentines Day and Birthdays. Is a day to celebrate women is not as important?

We had a little celebration too. Had lunch at the newly opened Chili's in Novy Arbat with bB and his groupmates. Not bad I must say, quite a lot of vegetarian and seafood choices for us Muslims. =) I didn't take any photos though. Being a silly goose as always, I brought my camera but forgot to put back the memory card in after I transfered yesterday's photo. Have to wait for Dinie to upload the pics on facebook.

Well, gotta get to my studies now. Tomorrow class starts. sigh. 3 day weekend is not enough. Holiday is never enough. ;P

oh! I cut my hair last friday and I love it! heehee..

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY TO ALL THE WOMEN IN THE WORLD!!!

March in Moscow