Wedding Jitters

I think bB is getting a little bit over stressed about the wedding. Especially when everything I like seems to be over RM1000+

I am in love with this designer Arma Abd Rahman Wedding Couture but the price! OMG.. I could just faint. Although, most wedding couture prices ranges about the same. But bB seem to disagree with me to spend too much for a wedding dress. And I need 3 wedding dresses. T_T

So for now, I gave up on searching for a tailor. I'm just going to ask my mom to find me a good and not-so-expensive tailor with (hopefully) a good workmanship for my wedding dresses.

Then I started searching for a make up artist. Took me almost a week of searching, from Google to Facebook to Instagram. So I found this lady, Lin Elier whose workmanship is so natural and so lovely and so gorgeous and then I found out she's charging RM1000 per session and my heart just breaks. Later I found out it's the same make up artist that did Farisa's reception. So pretty okay!!

My heart just kept breaking every time I start searching for my wedding things.

The problem with me is I want it grand, or at least look grand. Every one said it wouldn't matter, but it matters to me. I want to be satisfied. I don't want to regret anything later. If only money wasn't the problem.

Sigh...

What Makes You Beautiful

Me: b... Awak ok tak dengan warna biru?

bB: Asalkan awak nampak cantik.. Saya tak kisah

Me: MANA BOLEH!!! Kene la dua-dua cantik!

bB: Oh.. ye ke? Tapi saya tak kisah... 

Me: -_____-"


Do I go bold with the colour pastel blue, or should I play safe and go with pastel peach? I know I look good in both colours (okay, perasan jap), but I can't say if he'll look good in blue though... Never seen him wearing pastel blue before...

He just follows with whatever colour I choose. He doesn't even mind whatever colour I choose, as long as I'm happy...

But I can't be making all this decisions by myself! It's our ceremony.. Blue or Peach? Blue or Peach?

So... Peach or Blue? hrrmmm... 

One Big Little Step

Oh! We can't decide on an engagement date!!!

He wants it to be January, but I'll be just starting work in January. He wants it to be done before he goes into Medical Department. Otherwise he said it'll be in 2014. But I think I need time to adapt myself to work and I don't think I can divide my time and energy between working and arranging an engagement ceremony!

I want it to be simple but even if I just invite family and close friends, you must know, my father has 16 siblings (from 4 mothers) and my mother has 9 siblings (from 1 mother). Count all the cousins, nieces, nephews and grandchildren and that just makes the ceremony far from simple, I think.

And you must know the Malays. You can't invite one person, without inviting the other person. Even if you don't fancy that one aunt. In the end, I'm sure my mother will spread the words around anyway...

Plus, I can't just let my mother do all the preparations! I want to be in it too since it's my ceremony too!

What if I'm still tagging at that time or what if I got Medical or Surgical or Obstetrics Department as my first post?! Wouldn't that be difficult for me too? I mean, he's already adapt to work almost a year now, and I am just starting. I am afraid that stress will get to me, and the ceremony will be a disaster because I easily breakdown if things don't go my way...

Oh, this is so stressful.... and this is just thinking about the date! Not yet the actual planning!

For Heaven's Sake, I'm Freaking 25!!!

Why is it when you're staying at your parent's house you're bound to their rules? I can't go anywhere without telling them. There's also the fact, I don't have a car and can't afford to have one yet. I can't go anywhere without my mother. I can't do MY STUFFS. I can't go and meet my boyfriend. I can't just freaking do MY THINGS! I can't leave my room messy, I can't leave my bathroom messy, I can't cook what I want, I can't wake up in the afternoon, I can't be seen sleeping in the afternoon, I just freaking can't.....

For heaven's sake, I'm 25 years old! 26 in 3 months! I've been almost everywhere in Europe. I went out partying and came back at 7 am in the morning on every New Year's eve. I spent every single day with my boyfriend for 5 years! EVERY SINGLE DAY for almost 1826 days. Now I can't even get permission to see my own soon-to-be fiance! I didn't even asked for permission. I just said my plan, and she immediately said "NO! TAK PAYAH NAK MENGADA".

I am having 2nd thoughts about working and staying at my parents place. Eventhough I'll be saving a lot of money but I feel like appealing to work somewhere other than Kuantan. I feel like going away again, if this continues. I am THIS close (putting my thumb and index finger 1 cm apart) THIS close to rebelling. Although, I'm not 18 anymore and that would make look like such a child. Sighhhhhhh...... I just want to run away somewhere.

I want my freedom back.

And I've been spending only one month at home and I'm already feeling like this...

Other than that, my interview will be conducted on the 17th of October. Do wish me luck! I have not prepared anything yet. Well, maybe just about 5%. I do hope everything goes well! InsyaAllah.

Posts on my UK trip will have to wait for awhile. Do be patient. I won't abandon my travelling experience! I hope I'll have the mood and time to write!

Itchy Feet

Planning a trip with my bro to Amsterdam, Brussels and London before I start working. Hope it's a GO! I'm really really hoping so! I'm craving for Belgium waffles since my trip to Amsterdam and Brussels with Za got canceled. :'(

I hope my bro will get his holiday approved.

Envy

Kenapa saya tak pandai buat duit?

I don't care about materials, I wanna go travelling. I wanna go to every continent in the world and learn about people cultures and see their beautiful cities. Maybe I should sign up for UNICEF. I've always had that dream, but maybe I have other commitments. Sometimes I feel life is too short, sometimes I feel I never have enough efforts.

I want money to help people. I want money to see the world.

How do you divide your dream and time with your loved ones?

Зачем Я?

Зачем хочу тебя сейчас..
я тебя скучаю...

How to perform CPR

Pergh. I bet if I was this hot, doing CPR to my patients, they spring back to live immediately! (ngahaha! berangan!)

New Year's coming soon. I have to start on my resolutions. Although I feel like I haven't done any of my this year's resolutions. sigh. 2010 is a bad year. one more week! I hope 2011 will be better.

Exam's coming soon! ark! ;(

a couple of stuff

I'm just gonna write a couple of stuff in one post today.

With all the buzz that Prince William is getting married next year, tenders for Kate Middleton wedding dress has been opened! Click here to view slideshow of the dress sketches. The designers are from Gucci to Nina Ricci and of course Vera Wang. I love wedding dress!

Although I have to say, my most favourite is the design by Valentino.

It looks like a blossoming flower, so elegant yet so soft almost like a ballerina. ;D

Is there any way I could duplicate this design for my wedding? heee.. but even if I duplicate this design it would still be costly. ;(

I watched this a week ago. Katy Perry's interview on E! news during VH1 DIVAS SALUTE THE TROOPS.

and how adorable is Katy Perry during the interview with Ellen Degeneres!

awwww.. she's adorable & funny too! ;D
p/s: I wanna buy the perfume!! When is it coming to europe?

oh katy.. when will I be able to meet you.. hrmmm...

Gravity

As you know, I love to travel. I love going on buses, trains and long flights just to enjoy the view. I wish I had more time and money..

Anyway, these are the places I really wish to go!

1. Mecca. I wish to fulfill my duty as a muslim and perform Hajj. Although I've been here once when I was 11, I wish to go again! and I hope, InsyaAllah, ada rezeki saya untuk menjejak ke Tanah Haram sekali lagi. Amin..

2. NYC! I've been wanting to visit NYC since I was 18! just cause the city looks so cool especially in movies. ;P and of course I am so jealous with Farisa cause she has been there! and if I ever step on the US continent, I'd like to go to Las Vegas and Hollywood too! ;)

3. Istanbul! The city is just so gorgeous and a lot of Islamic History.

4. Mainly Greece. Because I have a huge passion for Greek Mythology! I used to read everything about the Gods and Goddesses, Hercules and Achilles, the monsters, etc. If I wasn't doing Medicine maybe I'd like to Major in Greek Mythologies but I don't think they have that in Malaysia. ;P

5. Tokyo! Konichiwa! Because I an anime addict! and I love the language. ;)

6. Rome, Venice, Milan & Tuscany! Because the city is just gorgeous! And I love the history on Roman Empire.

7. Sydney. but actually I heard Sydney is quite boring. hrmm.. Actually, I'd just like to travel to Australia and visit the Gold Coast or any other interesting parts of Australia! (or just the Warner Bros World ;P)

6. Prague. Because I want to see the huge astrological clock! And I fell in love with the city after watching The Brothers Bloom. ^.^

7. Seoul! Because I wanna meet Big Bang! ngeeeee.. ^.^

8. Morocco. Simply. I heard it's nice there.

9. Rio De Janeiro. Because Brazil is just so much fun! ;))

10. Oh! Of course local places! I'd like to go to Sipadan Island, Sabah. Eventhough I'm allergic to salt water, the sea just never bores me.

Well, of course I want to travel to more places but for now, lets just check this one out first! I really do wish money could grow on trees. hrmmm.. I wish I have more time here (like 7 years isn't enough -__-").

sighh...

bila saya nak rajin workout supaya dapat badan macam diorang?? ;P

ps: semangat gila Adam Levine cheer utk girlfriend die! ;) I hope this video won't get copyrighted or something..

Cat and Boxes

Ya Allah, gile gemuk kucing ni! suka gile die kat kotak.. sampai kotak kecik pon jadi! COOMMMMMMEEEEELLL!!! ^.^

Marry Me

b, nanti bila awak nak propose kat saya bagi lagu ni k? lol!

note to self: unfortunately, bb doesn't read my blog.. that's why i posted it here. buat malu je la kan kalau mintak depan2.. ngehh.. ;P

more and more wishlist!

I want so many things in life, that I wish I had more money! then again, don't everyone feel the same? Sometimes, I wish I was frugal because I want to be a millionaire (real millionaires are frugal just so you know.)

Anyway, I cant sleep until I get what I want and I want these!!! :(

DSLR Camera Pentax K-x Red Kit 18-55 mm


White iphone4

I blame Sha Bunny for showing me her white Pentax DSLR camera.. now I want a red one! >.<

oh! I forgot! I also wish to dye my hair either strawberry blonde color or chocolate brown.. hrmmm.. maybe something like this?

I just want something drastic

Makeup Magic!!!

Watch this! I'm sure you'll be as shock as I am!

This is insane!!! These girls looked like they had plastic surgery done to their face! but all they needed was make up, fake eyelashes and contact lenses!!!

This is an even drastic transformation!

This one has english subs. You should hear what they say! Seriously, men would do anything for girls with looks. Imagine! The guy actually bought a car for her and couldn't even recognize her when she went out without her makeup! [actually, I wouldn't recognize her either! my God..]

Make up would do wonders for girls.. Even increase self-confidence and business! XD

why do we lie, why do we cry, why do we have to say goodbye?

I hope everything goes well tomorrow. I just wanna go home.

*sigh*

still in doubt..

updates on my current quest of online shopping.. ;P

so, in the end, I decided NOT to buy the mp3 player because after much thought about it.. I don't actually need an mp3 player and after much discussion with bB, he thinks I'm better off without one because I haven't got any luck with the previous 2 mp3 player I owned and I don't actually use them.. so scratch another item on my wishlist..

Right now, I'm currently searching far and wide for the most reasonable price on the Alice in Wonderland Eyeshadow Palette.. and since I already scratched 2 items on my wishlist, I guess I could spend more on this Book of Shadows.. :)) and I'm currently looking at the "Buy It Now" section and there's one that actually looked quite reasonable.. GBP 44.99.. The seller previously sold it at GBP40.00 and someone bought it. Now, I'm regretting not buying it earlier.. I was still kind of in doubt..

although, I have no idea why I am still so scared to make a purchase right now. I just have to get bB's opinion on this thing! should I wait a little while until the price go down a little? or should I just make the purchase now? the price is quite reasonable.. and I am quite scared that someone else would make the purchase, but I'm kinda hoping the seller would reduce the price just a bit more.. *sigh*

later peeps..

Doubt

ok. here's the deal..

I'm scratching out the Manly's 88 Colors Eye Shadow Palette from my wish list because I don't think I'll be needing 88 eyeshadow colors.. I think it'll be a total waste of money..

and I'm still having doubts over the Hello Kitty mp3 player.. should I buy it? should I not? Do I really need it? or do I just wanna show off? and the sale is ending soon... I better make up my mind soon!!! *sigh*

and I really2 want that Alice in Wonderland eyeshadow palette.. I don't care how much it costs, I'm buying it! The bidding ends tomorrow at 3 a.m. (Russia Time) I hope i'll wake up to make the last minute bidding.. uhukk..

to top that off, I just set up my Paypal account and I still haven't received my confirmation code! I really don't know whether 'sempat' or not to buy that Hello Kitty mp3 player.. (T.T) Otherwise, I'd probably have to get bB for help and use his Paypal instead.. better make up my mind soon! *headache*

another wish list

I blame this on my sister for posting about this eyeshadow on her Tumblr. Oh! can someone please buy this for me!!! I don't know why, but I have a thing for limited editions stuffs, and this eyeshadow palette is SOLD OUT! yup.. thats right SOLD OUT. The only place available is on eBay, which I'm currently watching the biding price. The original price for this Alice in Wonderland Urban Decay Book of Shadows Eyeshadow Palette is US$52.. and it went up till $200 on eBay! CRAZY! like seriously! it went up more than triple the original price! and people still buy it.. anyway, I'm watching the cheaper ones. I hope no one is bidding anymore, so I can bid in the last minute and WIN! *fingers cross*. Well, if the price goes up till US$60, I might as well give up. There's no way I'm spending that much on this!

Next on my list is.. and I blame this on Syaniza for introducing me to the Professional Manly 180 Colors Eye Shadow Palette. Ok I don't need 180 eyeshadow colors, I'm not a make-up artist.. This one has 88 colors including brush which I found with a bargain price of $35.09 at LightinTheBox.com!!! It's a China wholesale website, and I'm still debating whether I should trust the website or not..

Last on my current list, is this cute Hello Kitty Mp3 player! Like I said, I have a thing for limited editions stuff. Anyway, my mp3 player broke down and I do need a new one. First time I saw this Hello Kitty Mp3 player is in Paris and it costs around €55-€60. Well, I found this on eBay and it costs US$65.09 and shipping to Malaysia is quite cheap (because it's from Korea).

Anyone wanna buy them for me? please, please, pweety please? :D May is just a few days away, and I'm itching to spend some money. I overspent last month, so I'm saving this month.. Oh please still be there till May! ;P

Just a Wish

I know Christmas is over... but can I still make a wish??

someone sent this link to my windows live account.. it's a ermmm... what do u call a website that sell colthes?? it's not really a blog shop.. I guess I'll just call it web shop.. hehee..

it looked like they import clothes from Korea.. and I love their stuffs!!!

the shop is called Fashion Khoo

I know the website is in Chinese, but you can use the google translate widget and translate the whole website into English.. :D it's a Malaysian based website.. and it's dotcom. I wonder why they put everything in Chinese? mcm racist je.. (o.0) seb baik ade google translate.. and seb baik baju semua cantik2!

the thing i like about this site is that, the gave you the whole body measurements, i.e, shoulder, length, waist, etc.... and they have so many clothes that are my trend.. ;)

oh! i'm so in love with this dress..

rase mcm nak beli sgt2.. huhuhu~ but the thing is.. I'm saving for Europe.. *sigh*.. maybe after the trip? ;)

I wonder if they have a shop anywhere? maybe I could go visit and try the clothes on.. hehee..

Can I go to Seoul and have a shopping spree there? anyone wanna join? huhuhu~